by Jill Glendening Clingan
Annie sat at her scarred dining-room table and fingered the cake recipes from her wooden recipe box. She furrowed her brow in concentration and didn’t even notice the wavy strands of brown hair that had escaped from her low ponytail and now curtained her soft, gray-blue eyes. She seemed to be looking through that curtain of hair into a tiny world that somehow existed inside that box. Some recipes were stained with fingerprints of vanilla, butter, oil. She self-consciously bent her nose to one of these and sniffed, hungering for a memory, a taste.
Mystery Cake
Pineapple Upside-Down Cake
Coconut Cake
Other recipes, the more complicated ones, were adorned with curlicues and spirals. She had a habit of doodling when she was concentrating.
Lady Baltimore Cake
Italian Cream Cake
Waldorf-Astoria Red Velvet Cake
And then some recipes were recently penciled in on lined 3×5cards. These were the newer recipes, with curious ingredient combinations composed in an age of want, of rationing, of war.
Vinegar Cake
War Cake
Red, White, and Blue Carrot Nut Ring
Annie sighed. She got up from the table and walked over to the sugar jar on the counter. Glancing over her shoulder—she didn’t want her husband, Joseph, to see her–she opened the jar and peered down inside. She scratched her index finger on the bottom of the jar and quickly brought her finger to her mouth for a taste, just a tiny taste. Nothing but a few crystals of sugar remained in the bottom of that jar, but she closed her eyes anyway, tasted the sweet, tiny crumb, and imagined the smooth sweetness of Red Velvet Cake, the rich textures and flavors of Coconut Cake, the satisfyingly sweet crunch of… She stopped, sighed again, and closed the jar.